But I knew that you were a truth I would rather lose than to have never lain beside at all*

I am excessively grumpy.  I'm pretty sure it is due to lack of food, but ugh.  The grumpiness today.

I went for an 8 mile run today.  After last weekend's 7 mile attempt, and how good I felt, I was expecting this week's run to be ok.  Ha!

I quit after 2 miles.  I was completely mentally NOT in to this run, and I couldn't even force myself to run a second lap around the park.  I just felt mentally exhausted and I had NO energy and it was so frustrating, because my legs felt fine.  I SHOULD have been able to run, I just could not make myself do it.  

I have all sorts of excuses.  I didn't eat right today (I knew this before even going to the park), I am still fighting this cold which is making me super stuffy and hard to breathe, I have been working long hours making me super tired, but seriously.  

I just didn't want to do it.  That's pretty much it.  And I'm stubborn enough, if I really don't want to do something, I am just not going to do it.  Blah.

So, I went back home and am currently sitting on the couch watching football and yelling at my fantasy players for sucking.  Some consistency week to week would be FANTASTIC.  

I'm going to attempt the 8 miles again tomorrow.  Hopefully it goes a bit better.  Sigh

*Death Cab For Cutie - What Sarah Said always makes me sad, not sure why it's floating around in my head today (may also be explaining my grumpy mood)